arghhh

I am turning to a traitor to ibu and ayah and kak iba. whatthaafakkkk? why am i being like a person who don't know her own place as a daughter, still depends on her parents. I rude to ibu. I lied to ayah. and i don't respect kak iba. what is happening to me?

oh god, we can be gleeful but sometimes we have to be serious in our lives in doing something. but, i am not that type of living. i enjoy playing everysecond, every time, everyday. right now,I still have a handphone which ibu and kak iba didn't let me to have it. anddd i am still onlining when i'm not allowed to.

to me, joy is an essential thing to live. but i am wrong, and i know that. tears drop running through my cheeks then my lips everyday thinking about my attitude. when i got scolded, i insulted ibu-well it is only a tiny itsy bitsy voice of me talking to myself. besides, just now i used a loud,angry voice to ibu which not an attitude of a daughter like me to have.

i feel sorry for her but i can't control myself. devils are around me whispering evilly

"get a social life, come on you! play around and don't pray! blablablaaa"

erghhhh why fafiq why, are you a human being or a wolf???!! when i looked at the mirror, i don't see the real me anymore.

please make me change, i have big exam this year-PMR, but i am getting worst than ever!